01. Blind
Are you ready?!
This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide
You don't know the chances.
What if I should die?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't know the chances. I'm so blind
Another place I find to escape the pain inside
You don't know the chances.
What if I should die?!
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't know the chances. I'm so blind!
Deeper, deeper, deeper as I journey to
live a life that seems to be a
lost reality
That I can never find
No way to reach my inner self self-esteem is low
How deep can I go in the ground
that I lay
If I don't find a way to see through the gray that clouds my mind.
This time I look to see what's between
the lines
I can see, I can see, I'm going blind...
I'm blind
02. Ball Tongue
There you are alone
With no hope of ever having something to be proud
of
Something earned without begging
Yes, I know you're a person, a person close to me
Who do you think you are? What
more do you want from me?
Ball Tongue!
Why are you at home buried in your own self pity?
Why do you insist on
living the life clean out of me?
Yes, I know you're the person, the person that took time with me
Does it give you the
right to expect your life revolves around me?
Ball Tongue!
You were my brother, Where does our friendship end?
You were my brother,
I'm not going to give in
How can you fuck'n doubt me, but not again
Ball Tongue!
You're a psychopath!
Ball Tongue!
03. Need to
I, I am confused, fighting myself
Wanting to give in, needing your help
Skin
cold with fear, feel it when we touch
Outside I know you, but inside I'm fucked
Can you see it in me? Skin cold from touch
Each day confronted with what
I have done
You pull me closer, I push you away
You tell me it's okay, I can't help but fell the pain
I hate you!
Why are you taken?
I love you!
I feel so helpless
Why
is it you?
Ripping my insides each time I lay with you
Why do I try?
Why do I really need to?
Why?
Fuck you, bitch!
Need to... fuck.
I hate you!
Why are you taken?
I love you!
I feel so helpless
Why
is it you?
Ripping my insides each time I'm with you
Why do I try?
Why do I fucking need to?
Fuck... slut.
04. Clown
Anger inside builds within my body
Why'd you hit me? What have I done?
You
tried to hit me
Try and hit me again, if you like
Throw your hate at me with all your
might
Hit me 'cause I'm strange, hit me
You tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder then me
What's with you boy? Think
hard.
A tattooed body to hide who you are
Scared to be honest, be yourself
A cowardly man
I don't run around trying to be what's not within me
Look into my eyes,
I am free
You're just a wannabe
Try and hit me again, if you like
Throw your hate at me with all your
might
Hit me 'cause I'm strange, hit me
You tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder then me
What's with you boy? Think
hard.
A tattooed body to hide who you are
Scared to be honest, be yourself
A cowardly man
To come out
Hit me clown
because I'm not from your town, now hit me clown
Clown you ain't shit.! Turn around and get your face split!
I'm just too fucking little...
05. Divine
I hide only to defy you
Take away the only life inside you
I see the
face through everyone
Inside I've just begun!
You think I'm out to scare you
I'm only out to prepare you for when
you stop and turn around
Your body's going down!
You're gonna waste your time,
Your life will soon be mine,
You're definitely
one of a kind, and
You're suffering 'cause of me, it's divine
Tell me why you never liked me
Tell me why it is you fight me
Pull
down and wait for the perfect time to take what is rightfully mine
You think they're dumb to defy me
You said you don't
want to defy me
You wait, you don't want anyone
Oh well. . .
You're gonna waste your time,
Your life will soon be mine,
You're definitely
one of a kind, and
You're suffering 'cause of me, it's divine
You know what, fuck you
I'm fed up with you
I'm not as good as you?
Fuck
no! I'm better than you!
Did you really think you'd beat me at my own game?
You try to see what
you got
Me ripping at your brain!
06. Faget
Here I am different in this normal world
Why did you tease me? Made me
feel upset
Fucking stereotypes feeding their heads
I am ugly. Please just go away
I can see it's hard to find
This blessing in disguise
Why you treat
me this way?
Made the hate stay
I sound like I can never seem to escape
all the laughing, all the pain
If
you were me, what would you do?
Nothing, probaly. You'd just throw me away
Faget!
I'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it
You wouldn't know a real man
even if you saw it
It keeps going on day after day, son
You faget! Get Away! We don't want none
I'm sick and tired
of people treating me this way everyday
Who gives a fuck? Right now I got something to say
to
all the people that think I'm strange
That I should be out of here locked up in a cage
You don't know what the hell
I fuck now anyway
You got this pretty boy feeling like I'm enslaved
to a world that never appreciated shit
YOU CAN
SUCK MY DICK AND FUCKING LIKE IT!
He might come but he has a body, anysay
He might come but he has a body,
anyway
He might come but he has a body, not going to say
He might come but he has a body, anyway
He might come but
he has a body, anysay
He might come but he has a body, not going away
He might come but he has a body, not going to
say
He might come but he has a body, anyway
I'm just a pretty boy, I'm not supposed to fuck a girl
I'm just a pretty
boy, living in this fucked up world
All my life, who am I?
I'm just a faget!
I'm a faget!
I'm not a faget
What am I?
You
mother fucking queers!
07. Shoots and Ladders
Ring around the rosies
Pocket full of posies
Ashes, ashes, we all fall
down
Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head
Into my childhood they're spoonfed
Hidden
violence revealed, darkness that seems real
Look at the pages that cause all this evil
One, two, buckle my shoe
Three, four, shut the door
Five, six, pick
up sticks
Seven, eight, lay them straight
London bridges falling down, falling down, falling down
London bridges
falling down, my fair lady
Nick nack patty wack, give a dog a bone
This old man came rolling home...
this old man came,
Mary had a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow!
Mary had a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow!
Baa baa black sheep
have you any wool
Mary had a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow!
Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full
Mary had
a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow!
Baa baa black sheep have you any wool
Mary had a little lamb!
Yes sir,
yes sir, three bags full
08. Predictable
I can, in every way
Mistake the pain I feel inside
It comes to me
Evil
thoughts is creeping through my mind
Who are you to say that I can't speak what's on my mind?
It runs away
It's so
predictable
I can, in every way, feel the stress that tangles up inside
Too blind
to see, emptiness and sorrow of their lives
You run away to the cover of their pointless ties
You ask me?
It's so
predictable
I'm gonna try
I'm gonna die
I'm gonna try
Another day...
Silence overwhelms my mind
Who is to say...
If I
have the time, oh why
Should I pray...
for all the hate to go away?
Another day...
I can never break free
You
wait for me
I call out to you
Another day
I'll live forever
09. Fake
I can't stand the sight of you
I can't stand what you put me through
Your
life's a lie, that you hide
Is it that terrible being you inside?
I can't stand, oh, the thought of you
I can't
stand all the things you do
What do you try to justify?
You are just too scared to be you inside
Let... it all go
Look at you, all I see, is a man too afraid to really be
I can't stand what you put me through
I can't stand even the thought of
you
Your secret lies that you hide
Is it that terrible being you inside?
You try so hard to be wanted
False emotions tells you fronted
I feel
being a person relies on one thing:
Be yourself, let you come through
You're too afraid to really be
Someone who
isn't false, who dosen't care to be
Be yourself, let you come through!
Fake!
You'll regret it, you'll regret it
10. Lies
I would like to search inside
for
all of the things that you will hide
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to
search through these problems that haunt
and taunt you
I smile, while you're afraid
Your run, while you're so in pain
Do you ever see outside your fears?
Thinking about your life
Thinking
about your inner fears
I would like to search inside
for all of the things that you will hide
What's
the problem?
Can't you seem to open your body and let me touch you
I want to see the life you have disguised
The world of things that hurt
you
Kept all these useless lies
I want you to fear, fill you on up inside
Once I took you in, I'll throw you out
next time
I tried, you win
My life is ripping your heart out and destroying my pain!
11. Helmet In The Bush
I keep asking, what's your lie?
It is disturbing. This isn't mine
Days
keep passing. A lot of time
I don't feel right
Please God let me sleep tonight
Everyday confronted circumvents giving in
I just wanna know why
Don't give it up
Don't hit my stick
I keep asking, well, again, please try
It is haunting. This takes my mind
Days
keep passing. Line after line
I don't feel right. Please God let me sleep tonight,
die tonight, die tonight, die tonight
Please God help me
Please God help me
Please God help me from my painful
situation
Please God don't let me slip in tonight, please God
Oh, please God don't
let me chip in tonight, please God
Oh, please God don't let me slip in tonight, don't let me die
Please God don't let
me give in tonight, don't let me die
12. Daddy
Mother please forgive me
I just had to get out all my pain and suffering
Now
that I am done, remember I will always love you
I'm your son
Little child, looking so pretty
Come out and play, I'll be your daddy
Innocent
child, looking so sweet
A rape in my eyes and on your flesh I'll eat
You've raped! I feel dirty
It hurt! As a child
Tied down! That's a
good boy
And fucked! Your own child
I scream! No one hears me
It hurt! I'm not a liar
My God! Saw you watching
Mommy
why?! Your own child
It's alright
I didn't touch you there
Mama said she didn't care
I didn't touch you
there
That's why mama stopped and stared